It all happened on the 5th of March.
I wasn’t really very tense or anxious on friday or on any other day before that. Maybe it’s because I wasn’t really thinking about it but I think it’s because of God’s peace. I’ve been praying for Tammy’s and my results for a pretty long time and whatever that turns up is God’s will and will be what’s best for us.
So anyway, anxiety levels did go up on friday but nothing serious. I’ve been trained all my life to believe that I did like shit and always got scolded if I dared to dream too big. Straight As were for people much smarter than me. I’d be damned lucky to get that straight As. Anyway I didn’t get any call from VJ since I was told they only called straight A students.
Over at school, it was more of a happy than nervous and tense atmosphere for me. I was really happy to see everyone together again. Everyone is fine and well. It’s so good to see my juniors again too. Ju Lian somehow knew my results and he told me that my hard work has paid off. Ju Lian is probably the only non-classmate and non-bahnep member that knows how friggin hard i worked and how much I’ve sacrificed for the A levels. I didn’t really want him to tell me how I did, I really wanted to see it for myself.
I have been following some of the winter olympics and I wanted the winning moment. The moment in time when all you feel is euphoria. Happiness simply overwhelms you and that’s what I dream of having. Not the olympic gold moment, but my A level “gold” moment.
Now I shall fast forward to the point where I received my results. Mrs Koh said that “looks like your study methods served you well” or something along those lines. That made me feel better but my other classmates were getting Bs and Cs. My other classmates who were much smarter than me were getting 3 As but GP not too good. It was making me a little tense but I was prepared to just get maybe one or two As, enough to go to a local uni.
I took a deep breath, flipped over my results sheet and there it was. My A level gold moment. I broke down immediately. It was simply too overwhelming. Words cannot describe how I felt. Tears flowed and I just kept crying. Daniel was kind enough to offer a shoulder. The feeling of hard work paying off is really worth the effort. All my forbidden dreams have come true. My fears have not materialised. I’m not the dredge of the IP!
Most importantly, thank the Lord!!! I will put what he has given me to good use.
Tammy soon called to tell me she did pretty well. I am so proud of her. If anyone were to criticise her, they’ll face my angry wrath. RAWR! She did very well considering the kind of environment she’s in and I couldn’t be any more proud of her. We’ve pulled through my darling!!! We’ve proved to everybody that we can juggle love and studies! We are the king and queen of the world!!!
After talking to bahnep, sailors and classmates, Tammy and I went off to celebrate. We wanted to go to this place called Blue Sago in chinatown but apparently it moved. So we trekked over to Clarke Quay and ate at Pasta de Waraku. It was simply sumptuous. I recall my comment that Japanese food and pasta don’t go together. The food was savoury and tasty without being too salty. Portions were generous but not too much such that you’ll feel bloated or too full. Prices were reasonable for a restaurant. Ok, enough talk, photos!