Child abuse!!!

ALright…another lag entry. Lemme change the date.
27th January Saturday
Sailing training today. On the Byte again. A small speedy boat but extremely unsteady. It’s my second time sailing on my baby and I resolve to "tame the beast". Nasty boat gave me a hard time the other week. Capsizing countless times and sucking the energy right out of me trying to upright her. Anyway B17 is too boring a name for a beauty like her. So I shall give her a name: ShadowJayde. Haha, like owner like boat. Shadow Camper and ShadowJayde. Haha. I’m a madman who names his boats. Too bad I can’t christen it with a galss bottle, or else Mr Yong will take a METAL one and clobber me to death.
 
Alright, today sailing figure of 8 around 2 marks, both on reach. I wanted to try something more exciting like going upwind but i shall leave it till next time when I get better. Had a bit of a tough time rigging up my baby. Considering that it’s only my third time rigging up a byte. Actually I think I’m not that bad already when it comes to rigging up a byte. Just that I revered the outhaul and other minor mistakes…Heh heh. We got bungs today. Last week nicole and I had to use TAPE to seal the hole. Or else water will start leaking into the hull of the boat and it’ll be quite tough to get the water out. NSC water = water with lots of oil scum and litter. Frightening thought of all that rubbish spewing into my precious. So we got bungs to seal the hole PROPERLY. I was very pleased. I also bought a burgee, the wrap around kind. That stupid thing cost me $20!!! Some plastic pieces and a screw cost me TWENTY BUCKS??? Haiz, no choice. Can’t get it cheaper anywhere else. Then when I got back to ShadowJayde, i realised that there’s no screwdriver to fix the burgee on to the handle! ARGH! This means that I can’t use it this week. Shucks.
 
Now that we’ve launched, the accidents started to begin…The sky was threatening but NO FEAR! The Shadows have nothing to lose (me and my Byte). I shall recall all the calamaties and blunders that happened to me.
Number 1:
I got hit by a 420 on the starboard side. I got hit by a 420!!! That thing is like 1 and 1/4 times bigger than my Byte and about 1 1/2 wider??? Not to mention much heavier and deadly too. The 420’s bow struck ShadowJayde’s starboard side and as a result…I got thrown off the boat and into the water with my boat following suit. After righting the boat I found a dent on ShadowJayde’s starboard side. SHIT, I’m screwed…I was still in a daze to figure out why Andrea (the 420 crew) didn’t see me. I was on a reach so I didn’t see them but they were approaching me head-on. SHeesh! I recalled Zhaoey saying, "My God! 3 pairs of eyes and we’re all blind." How true. Thankfully the dent popped itself out and there were no cracks or holes. She’s a tough one I say…
 
Number 2:
 
I got hit by Kai Xin on a Laser which is, again, bigger than my Byte. This time when I say "I got hit" it doesn’t mean my boat got hit but seriously I got hit, in person. On the left hip. We were on collision course and I wanted to bear away but my stubborn boat refused to listen therefore I got bumped on the hip. Thankfully I didn’t fall off or something.
 
Number 3:
 
My tiller extension broke. I don’t know how it happened but it happened anyway. First capsize: Tiller ext bent around 45 degrees. Second capsize: the bent part fell off. I was stunned. Stuck in the open sea when it’s raining, strong current and with a broken tiller extension isn’t a good thing. But nonetheless I managed to head back to shore very slowly. I don’t want to capsize and impale myself with the broken tiller extension which was quite sharp since it broke. I was back to shore early so i sat down on a concrete bench flicking away all the scum on my legs and doing a little reflection.
 
Number 4:
 
All the bumps and cuts experienced while sailing…
 
I feel very abused…poor ShadowJayde also took quite a beating. Oh btw, I kinda managed to "tame the beast". She was much more obedient than last time.

Thanksgiving…

I take back what I said earlier on. I may not be the best in whatever I do best, nor can I do anything spectacular. I may not be at the top of the social ladder nor do I have skills that will help me get to the top. However, I’m not at the lowest rung either. When you’re among the best you sometimes forget who you really are. You start to compare yourself with others and see your many flaws and weaknesses. Nevertheless I will not say that my strengths outnumber my weaknesses. So I must really give thanks that I am who I am and that I am given all that I need to make a difference to myself. My most precious possession is my identity. And there’ll always be one Shadow Camper who thinks the name Oxalis Jasmine is the sweetest sound on this world… …

My legacy that I would want to leave behind…

Ms Low asked us what legacy would each of us leave behind today. And it stumped me…Why should I leave a legacy? If i’m gone, i’m gone. People might be sad, some might rejoice. Even if i do leave some piece of myself behind…why should anyone bother to remember it? Alright, assuming that everyone leaves behind a legacy which they probably do…what legacy would i leave behind?
Since long long time ago…everyone used to say that i’m a cheerful kid full of energy and excitement. Now that I’m in the IP, all that cheerfullness, energy and excitement has all gone. What’s the point? I’ve tried and failed. It always happens like that. When you think you’re good in something there’s always somebody to step over you. Even if you think you’re an all rounder or a jack-of-all-trades, there’ll always be somebody rounder and a jack-of-MORE-trades. Fine, we don’t have to excel in everything that we do or beat others who are better at what we do best. So we can stay at the bottom of the social ladder and be content? Nooo…In the IP, you’re exposed to the REAL world. Exposed to people who can probably squish you with their fingernail and others who are simply better at everything you do. I had a dream once…I wanted to join the DSO, get a defence science scholarship and get a few patents. Now it seems that there’s no more defence science scholarships left for me and all the ideas that I had were already existent. Maybe I’m wrong to despair. But I’m not. I’m doing a reality check. Hope to succeed but always always prepare to fail. You’ll probably fail more times than you succeed. Now, I don’t believe in optimism. It never works. Optimism drives you up a wall thinking: YES! I can do it! Just let me try! I CAN do it!" Whatever for? Some can jump up the wall, parkour over it. Know your limitations. Go AROUND it, no point banging at it just for the sake of optimism. It’s too ideal to be true.
 
So what kind of legacy do i want to leave? I want to be known as the Camper. A practical, down to earth jack-of-all-trades. Of course not without the lameness. Just camp, watch how others do it then make a move. Look what the situation is like before making a decision. Silence is golden. Reality is too cruel, learn to live with it. It smacks you on the head and before you can get up it hits you again and again and again. So what for get up? I’d probably move faster crawling than those clowns trying to get up and falling over. The ones who are standing are the ones who have no heads for life to take aim at…
 
Camper legacy…

Lame shitz day…

List of things that I did today:
1. Write a letter to my mortal, guess what…I wrote part of it in rune! Hahahaha! Poor dude has to go and decipher it himself…
 
2. Played volleyball during PE. As usual I was camping again…hardly touched the ball. Zhai Juan, Donovan and Cui Yue were playing, fortunately CK couldn’t play, if not they could start playing 2-a-side volleyball liao…
 
3.Took my weight and it turned out to be a whopping 63 kilos…I was stunned. Seriously hope the weight is muscle weight, not fat weight. Anyway I am officially above 180 cm. I’m 181!!! Woots! Congrats to myself! Oleh!
 
4. Went to fence Nicholas again…with the wooden swords that I brought back from Japan for cultural night. Couldn’t bear to leave it there so I brought it back. Now it’s put to good use…I taught myself a new move today. I was so pleased with myself…maybe I’m praising myself too much but hey…I’m from Sailing not Fencing…
 
5. Had a ridiculous conversation with Christine
Xtine: Where are you guys going?
Me: To Beyond!
Xtine: *stunned
Lollerskates
 
6. Went to beyond childcare to do some sai kang…Seems to be that I was the only one around who knew how to use a laminator. Haha, the other group had to read with the children while my group had to do "teaching aids"…SO we did the usual cutting, colouring and laminating…Interesting thing was that after we finished laminating the crossword puzzles with the children’s names on them…we found out that there are a few poor kids with their names MISSING from the crossword puzzle!!! Like this guy called Solehein(at least I think it’s spelt like this) was left out. There wasn’t even an ‘O’ in the crossword! How to find sOlehein??? Lollerskates…
 
Anyway now it’s time for the more philosophical part…
I’ve always been very interested in social science. My current interest is now about sociable people and anti-sociable people. It’s a very interesting study. IPs already display some very intriguing personalities…
Type A: The truly sociable character. Very friendly and mixes very well with people without any problems
 
Type B: Also very sociable but has a few dark sides like a short temper, aggressive etc. Nonetheless, friendly and likeable
 
Type C: Sociable but only to certain groups of people…they are despised and hated by the others
 
Type D: Fallen socialites. Used to be liked by everyone but when something happens or a secret is revealed…yeah u get the idea…
 
Now…for the anti-socials…
 
Type 1. The ultimate anti social, does not have friends at all.
 
>>>To be continued

Summoning is complete…

Just came back from Sim Lim Square (SLS for short). Collected my sis’ lappy and bought a new motherboard for my com. My sis spilled water on the lappy and fried the motherboard. So there, A very intelligent thing to do. Anyway…I hope now that i got a new motherboard…i can start using my PC and play games…I was so dissappointed last Sunday when I got call of duty from my friend only to return home to find that my com isn’t working…Sad…so sad. Anyway I haven’t put in the motherboard yet…But I sure hope it works…
 
Summoning PC: 0% completed

A really interesting day at school…

How interesting…during physics lesson today, ol’ Boyo was teaching us, and will be for the rest for the year. But he made us think alot. About physics. I like the one which he said that physics is all about probability. Just like what I was thinking! If you jump on the floor, what are the odds that you will fall through it? Very low but you cannot erase the probability. How interesting…I have foresight…
 
And here’s an interesting thought. If objects prefer to be in constant velocity or stationary…which means that an object will not move unless external forces act on it. BUT…if you could reverse this, and make objects prefer to accelerate…bingo. You get energy. Free energy! At no cost! Turbines would move on their own! Imagine a bullet which will accelerate on it’s own, coupled together with the energy supplied from the exploding gas within the gun…you can make rail guns man…firing bullets faster than the speed of sound or even a rubber band lol. But of course not everything should tend to accelerate.
 
Okay just an interesting thought for the day.
 
And I believe that we live in a damn sad world. Feeling happy is the negative of sad. And we are always sad when made happy. Not happy till made sad.

NACLI prison break

NACLI was a complete nightmare…and a total rip off. Actually couldn’t really blame them…who knew that they would be situated smack in the middle of a forest so that the facility recieves ample amounts of rainfall and off course non-human visitors from the forest…Anyway, we all tried to make the best out of it so we turned the whole thing into a gambling den. Without the money of course…budden it wouldn’t be called a gambling den wouldn’t it? Hm…fine, we were always playing cards. Without the cards…there wouldn’t be much left of us…thank goodness for the cards…
 
First day…
We were given a lecture on service learning…All that I took home was that service and learning must be equal. You can’t serve more than what you will learn and vice versa. I wonder why not. Later on in the day we went down to the centre at Bukit Merah. I tell you the kids are adorable but bloddy hell hard to handle. The centre was called Beyond social services. Went to check around the place and interacted with the kids. The kids are quite smart actually, but have extremely short attention spans. It was damn hard to get them to do anything, let alone READ to them… This is going to be abit challenging…Wonder whether you can evangelise to them…Heh Heh, their parents will probably slaughter me if they find out.
"I want you to draw a BIG BIG fish."
"Alright, I’ll draw you a big fish."
*Finishes drawing a big fish
*Kid is nowhere to be seen
Cunning fella…
So I will use THE modern approach…It’s called IT. Bloddy hell, the place has computers and LCD TVs…Like wtf? That’s better than my own TV!
 
Alright…so the next day was about to get worse…Everyone was split into Courses A and B. So we had a smaller group and could "learn better". I’m not going to record what they taught because everything that they said is already in my head. I have learnt everything and am practising them now, setting goals…team building…etc. What rubbish. Didn’t get anywhere exciting…Kenny was stoning around and I was pretending to be excited, at least I tried to make the most of it…The fun parts were AFTER all the rubbish activities…
 
Fun parts…
1.
Ok, this is not so fun but it’s interestingly irritating.
*David enters my room
"Hey check your bed and pillows for bed bugs."
*everyone shows the WTF face
"My bed and pillow got alot"
*I check pillow
*And it was bed bug positive…I flung it to the otherside of the room where nobody walked to and I used my inflatable pillow instead. Thank goodness I have excellent foresight (To bring the pillow, not expect the bed bugs)
 
2.
*Feels cold in the middle of the night, roughly 3 am
*Realises that the air-con was set to 16 degrees and nobody changed it
*Didn’t bother to change the temperature. Wraps blanket around self and tries to sleep
*Hears a funny noise 5 minutes later…sudden realisation that somebody is playing Jay Chou music and it’s Joel
*Tries to sleep again but cannot
*Tosses and turns but unable to fall asleep again
ARGH!!!! Darn you Joel. Ar….
 
3.
Context: I just moved into Sheng Chow, En Wei and Kenny’s room to bunk for the night. We were all laughing and joking lying oon our beds in complete darkness. The mood was very high…
"OK…enough enough, we should go to sleep/
"Ok, I’m saying goodnight for the last time. Good night"
*Awkward silence…
Sheng Chow," I love my balls."
WTFOMFGBBQ….That was the ultimate random shit statement that was ever made…We all started laughing again for probably 15 minutes or so before knocking out. Thank goodness Cephas’ bed doesn’t have bed bugs…
 
4.
There’s another traumatising incident regarding vtsxu jptdr but I’d rather not disclose it. Rather scandalous if you’d ask me. But either way it was traumatising for me…i got the shock of my life.
 
So that was all at NACLI…
 
And when I got home…my com broke down and today I lost my phone charger, i brought it to the camp but I clearly remember packing it in…dunno what happened to it…